The last three days I have been trying to kill off this growth around my hip region. My method that I thought would work is to go on the treadmill for 30 minutes to an hour a day at level 20 and try to burn just over a thousand calories. I did some reading on Wikipedia about strength training tonight. Why wikipedia? Because it seems to be a reliable source of information. These other sources seem to be fads. I found that doing what I am doing will burn muscle not fat this is bad for a man who is unhappy being not skinny but not sufficiently thick. I am working out hard and eating small servings. Apparently I need to increase my protein intake and that will in turn grow muscle and burn fat. I also noticed in just these three days my mood has stabilized. You know what people with depression need a kick in the arse to the freaking gym. I am serious I am feeling great, "no joke" whereas in Spain one hour I want to lock my hotel room door turn out the lights and hope that I can fall asleep in hopes that I will wake up in a better mood. And then an hour later get jittery and want to go see everything I can before I leave. Continuing with my last couple of days. I have a twelve hour shift in which I try to read, call family and watch a movie to help two hours fly by. Other than that I just make sure no durka durka mohamed jihad enters or comes near the building. Without a clearance of course. I have decided that my next shift I am going to do push ups sit ups and stretches maybe fool around with yoga or pilates when none of the guys are there of course. I would get so gaybled if I was caught doing yoga stuff. I kid you not every guy I know that does that stuff looks like I would like to look not gay of course just in a certain kind of shape toned and healthy and semi bulky. I woman touched my bare chest today. It cost eight dollars for a half hour of pain. I was so sore I did not let my self consciousness about my hair stop me. She massaged my back too. I went once before and felt really stupid because I was not sore and she was weak. Got to go times up.
